She woke up the other morning with the two little curls in her hair that were the cutest.
The little piece of Haiden's hair that has been stark white ever since she was born and now that her hair is growing you can really see it.
~My mornings with Haiden...
I usually hear here wake up and play with her toys and talk to them or make them sing over and over again and I like to sneak in and watch her for a minute before I make the slightest noise and she looks up so quickly and then wants out of her crib immediately. then of course there are the occasional mornings where she wakes up crabby or has decided to stick her fingers in her diaper and make poo artwork which is totally disgusting but i have to laugh because my dad called it her "poo artwork." But thankfully those don't happen very often.
And last night we set up cami's little table and this morning Haiden wanted to sit there for breakfast. So she brought her little stuffed animal and little dog to the table to share her breakfast with it.
She enjoyed some yummy cheerios and then banana. It's not good enough for her to just take bites, she wants to try to stuff then entire thing in her mouth and then she can't chew.
Of course she played too but she loved sitting at the table and not in her booster seat...
~Big girl potty time
And then she decided this morning that she was going to use the big girl potty. Talk about exciting! We were in the kitchen and she made her typical grunt and then grabbed her diaper. I knew she was trying to poop. Haiden do you need to go poop? Do you want to go on the big girl potty? Nahhhh! Which today no has meant yes so I said Come on let's go on the big girl potty so we ran in and stripped down as fast as we could and she sat on the potty. Within in a few minutes she started grunting. I couldn't believe it! I was so excited. I know this does not mean she is potty trained by any means but I am more than excited for any interest that she shows.
Her new thing is she has to have something to read while she is on the pot. Doesn't matter what it is but she's gotta read. She cracks me up. I used to do this as a child so its funny to see her doing the exact same thing.
We celebrated when she finished! YAHOO! Haiden was excited too!
~The tree is in full bloom....
~Afternoon walks with the girls...stopping by the playground...admiring new life...
Ahhh it's beautiful.
Haiden collected a rock and a stick on our walk.
~I love nights where my hubby is actually home and I can snuggle up in bed with him...it doesn't happen often enough.
~I am so excited about a new adventure I am starting.
~God has been SO SO SO faithful since I took a leap in December and chose to stay home with our girls. I cannot begin to spell all the ways but I can tell you without a doubt it surely has not been a coincidentally that everything has fallen into place. It brings me so much peace and joy! I am so excited when I actually sit and think about it. Seriously when I decided to stay home the only thing I could think of was me standing at the edge of a cliff and letting go and free falling, not knowing how I was going to land. (I think of that song "Free Falling" but have no idea who sings it and I only know the main chorus) I was at a place where I had to take a leap of faith and boy am I glad I did. This is something I have wanted for so long and to actually be living it still amazes me. Sometimes it still doesn't feel real but I love it.
I remember when I was pregnant with Haiden there were several of my friends that had babies around the same time I did and all of us had to go back to work and we all wanted to be home. I said to myself I am determined, I am going to find a way, I am going to be the first one so they can see it is possible and hopefully it will give them the same opportunity. Believe me, my heart goes out to all the working moms because I have been there, for far too long, and I know what that feels like. I don't ever want to have to experience of leaving my baby for the first day of going back to work after I have been on maternity leave again. I felt like I was losing someone, it was like ripping my heart out or tearing this bond that I just formed in the months prior. I hated it. I told Steve if I knew I was going to have to do that again I surely wasn't having anymore children. I am so thankful that our life has slowed down some, that we aren't ALWAYS on the run like we used to be.
~I have to admit it is a little scary and frightening sometimes when I think well I really don't know how it will all work out or how is this going to work or how are we going to handle this. I am the type of person who likes to have a plan for everything and be organized. And by taking this leap I have totally had to step out of my comfort zone and it has been everything but planned and organized. In a way it is amazing and I feel free but then there are times where I freak out a bit. I just look back and remember ALL I have been through over the years and look at where I am now. I think about what obstacles I have overcome that have made me so much stronger and have gotten me where I am today and then I know it will all work out. It has to right?
~Haiden, Mack and I have been walking each morning and it's so refreshing. It gives me energy and thankfully I have had motivation to keep it up. I have been eating better as well and so all around I think its helping little by little. I look forward to summer days, soaking up the sun with the girls and enjoying every minute of it.
~I also see the ZOO in our near future. We haven't gone the last two years and I really want to go this year before it gets too hot. I think both Haiden and Cameron would love it.
~Hopefully we will be going to the beach this September and I CANNOT wait! I haven't been to the beach in what feels like 5 years and I am so excited! I love the beach, until I get enough of the sand or sea spray of course and I am excited to be able to take Haiden for the first time and show her all the things I did as a kid at the beach like digging up the little sand critters, walking the beach at night and finding all the fiddler crabs, making sand castles, letting my feet get buried in the sand with the waves constantly crash over them, getting a nice golden glow to my skin and just relaxing. I am counting down the days.
